I hate to admit it, but I have been in a spiritual funk for the last week. I can’t even hardly explain it. I think it started the day I looked into the details for going back to school (which isn’t nearly as bad as I made it). I’m not sure if I just got overwhelmed or what the deal is…and I’m only just now coming out of it. The best way I know to describe the feeling is a spiritual oppression…I’ve just felt “out of sorts” spiritually.
But I learned something during the process. I learned to lean on God a little more during this “funk”. I hate it when my prayers seem to hit the ceiling and bounce back, or when my Bible reading feels flat, or when I feel like I’m completely ineffective in my service. But I learned to persevere through it (with God’s help) and just leave it all in His lap.
And I’m convinced this is just another form of spiritual warfare that the enemy uses to try and keep us down (and maybe a way God tests us to see if we will really look to Him during the dry times). But it’s still no fun when you’re going through it. The mountain top experiences are so much more fun, but I don’t seem to learn as much up there. Pain and struggle seem to be one of the ways God gets my attention and keeps me focused on Him.
He never promised roses and cherries…but He does promise to draw near to us when we draw near to Him and when we resist the enemy (James 4:7-8). That’s a promise I can lean on!
